My DARLING camera, this goes to you... :'(

Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side


So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home


But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay.




I LOVE YOU.
HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME?!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
YOURE MY LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.
HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO BLOODY CARELESS?
YOU MEAN A LOT MORE THAN A CAMERA.
YOU'RE NOT JUST A CAMERA.
YOU'RE MY DAD'S CAMERA.
AND YOU ARE MY LOVER.

I DONT CARE WHO TOOK THE CAMERA.
I DONT CARE THAT YOU'RE A THIEF.
JUST GIVE IT BACK TO ME.
I'LL GIVE YOU ANYTHING YOU WANT. except for my virginity.
ANYTHING. reasonble that is.

COME BACK TO ME, CAMERA.
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO,
AND I AM IN DEEP TROUBLE.


LOTS OF LOVE,
MADHIAH.

Blogged @ 3:45:00 PM




This is addressed to the kind soul who has my camera with him/her right now.
Could you please return it back to me because i cannot live without it.
My camera is my soul companion.
and I am an irresponsible person.
Founders will be rewarded.
THANK YOU.
May God Bless You.



Yours truly,
Madhiah

Blogged @ 7:30:00 PM




ok im not gonna type a lot because... i've got pictures. (:

havent seen nasuha for about 6 months! oh how we missed each other so. haha.


long time no seee!

went to Ripley Cres. on Friday to meet nas and fif. (((:
helped with the wedding souvenirs. heh heh.


SO CUUUTE.








ok for whoever who was wondering why nas said she likes to suck my dick on my tagboard over there, it is not a spam.. it is this picture. hahahahah.


ate at macdonald's after that..
oh boy, it was full of soccer fans who cant watch tv and home and just HAVE to watch at macdonalds.

went to the wedding the next day.. everything seemed to be a rush.


nawfal!


RIQA!

oh man it was like a baby galore or smth. hahah


didnt snap a proper pic of the weds.


look at my tired eyes. i was soooper exhausted man. hah. and afifah looked like she's having a great time. well she was, kinda. hahahah


brother and sister.


kakak riha and afifah.


uhh..


finger butt! hahaha. so much for a twin effect, widad.

then... rushed home for OP06 at VCH.


yes, we still had time for camwhoring. harhar.


in the caaarr...






smsing girlfriend ehh...




this was goood.


starvation.


in the bus home.

we woke up early the next day...



to do THESE:





as very belated birthday presents.

and iman was watching some mandarin show. so cuuute.




i think she was pooping though. ahhah.


aiyo, this girl ah.. so 'kopet'.
hahahahah.
it means havent bathe.

kla just got home from school. so tired.
didnt do much in school, but i was FREAAAKIN tired that i ACCIDENTALLY slept during some lessons la. not that i want to. it just happened. siiigh. ok im gonna bathe then do my homework la.

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*in reference to my previous 2 posts, on the 14th June, i DID NOT COMPLETE THE WHOLE TYS laaa. hahahhahahah. what i meant was i completed my chem tys HOMEWORK. ok just in case people think i was a bit too hardworking or anything. hhahahah.//*

....

these days, i noticed that i have been procastinating to reply sms-es.
i think it's mainly because i dont really know what to reply, i was not free at the moment, i did not want to reply, i was away from my phone, i was too distracted by The Sims 2 or just mainly because i didnt know who sms-ed me making me not bothered with the person messaging.

i think prank text messages are crap. especially when you've gone through a revolting experience whereby a sex maniac messages you about how big the size of his dick is. i made the right decision to ignore those horrible messages and soon the maniac ceased sms-ing me. i never told my parents though. but i did tell ms kaur about it. heh. so since that incident onwards, i only 'entertain' people i know, even though i may reply terribly late. (ie the next morning or when i am about to go to sleep) so just a reminder, for the benefit of everyone, if you have a new number or something, please tell who you are if you want the receiver to reply.

well anyway all these things are subjective huh. people misuse handphones and the internet more often than not. it's so hard to have a fairytale-like life with the use of technology. i think Sam in A Cinderella Story is so lucky to have met her Prince Charming through the internet. haha. well, my perception might be backward but i guess i was brought up with fairytales. hahaha. i think i used to watch Cinderella and Snow White and the Seven Dwarves and read The Sleeping Beauty almost everyday when i was small. well, ok i read the Tom and Kate and Sam books too, but that was just to master my skill of reading fluently. hahaaha. i was so happy i could read those Mickey Mouse books. LOL. sigh those were the days. Kids these days only watch Hi-5, Blue's Clues, Dora the Explorer and whatnots. They dont even watch fairytale stories anymore la, i think. not that they show them on tv anymore..

yeah ok so this post is quite random but, i really want to have a happily-ever-after life. HA HA. maybe i am dreaming too much. so yeah, for now i'll just go back to reality. when i go to the University one day, i will bump into my Prince Charming and he will pick my books up for me and hand over my specs for me and it will be the start of a FairyTale story. HA HA. that is so surreal.. but wouldnt that be nice?

but then again, i am only 16, there is a life ahead of me. i shouldnt be thinking about this. HEH. like i said, it's just a random thought.

i've DECIDED what to wear for OP06!! hint: something black and purple. (:

LATER!

madhiah

Blogged @ 11:19:00 AM




HEY!
whoa man, ive had almost A LOT of fun for the past few days.
i said almost because i bet i would have had MORE FUN if i had completed all my homework. heh.
well depressing topic aside...

Wednesday
went out with JUNMEI.
we went to topshop, forever21 and fareast.
we tried on clothes.
but we didnt get anything.
:((
lol

yes i know i look fat.

Thursday
went out with HAYATI and HUDA.
amelia couldnt make it on that day. wasted la ameliaa.. WHY WHY WHY!! haha
we went to fareast to SHOP.
YES, finally i'm using my money.
hahah.
we all got something from Blossomz! due to my carelessness, i accidentally dropped my drink infront of the shop. thankfully, the shopkeepers weren't angry because we were 'loyal customers'.
so anyway, we bought THESE.





ate at RAMEN-TEN.
i am salivating.
the food was fantabulous. ((:


huda loves the cherry.


hayati loves the whipped cream. hahah


i hate the cherry. (:

Friday
my aunt, sleptover on thursday night. (:
the original plan was to go to ESCAPE THEMEPARK.
but we decided to change our plan because it was supposedly raining.
haha.
so we went kbox-ing instead!!
lmao.
before that we ate our late lunch at Fish & Co.!
again, the food was damn good.
i nearly typed the good was damn food. hahaha








the big drink.
haha


kbox-ing (:



blablablablablabla...
slept over at my another aunty's house.
we caught a midnight movie.
R.V.
it wasnt FANTASTIC.
i'd give it a 2 out of 5 stars.
heh.


we played BINGO! hahah

and then Cik Cah gave out a killer fart.
ahahhaha..


Saturday
went to Marina Square to get my sister's birthday present.


so 'jakun'! hahah

after hours of hunting for presents, we went to Breeks for an early dinner.
ok tell you what, i am getting fat after days of eating gooooooooood foooood. ((:

BUUURP.



MADHIAH.

PS: PLEASE TAG. hahah


Blogged @ 3:32:00 PM




i am going out with JUNMEI later.
but there's still 1 more hour to go get ready.
what do i do?
haha.
ive completed my chem tys already! finally!
it took me about 4 hours - inclusive of 1 hour of sleeping and 1 hour of staring into space plus the KIDS in the childcare centre near my house were friggin' irritating. they were making noises like shouting "narnia killing" in unison as though it was a satanic chant or something. at least i THOUGHT i heard "narnia killing". hahah. so i shut my window and listened to BLUE instead. lmao.

i felt SO SO DEPRESSED this morning.
why?
MONEY ISSUES.
i wrote down what i wanna buy and the budget beside them..
i had to CANCEL OUT some things because i know i wont have enough money.
so by the end of this month, i would have 22bucks left.
or maybe less.
it's terribly depressing that money is SO hard to get but so easy to go!!
whyyy!!!
booohoooo.


money, i love you.
madhiah.

Blogged @ 12:09:00 PM




i smashed a bug with my bare fingers!!


fresh. hah.


this was what happened moments later.

ok i'm so sorry my camera sucks at taking dead insects okay.
hahah.
if you cant make out what the picture above is, it is a picture of a dead insect surrounded by ants.

i know this is sucha random post but i am SO BORED.
i downloaded a game called simGangster, a lead-you-to-nowhere game.
i couldnt help but to play it over and over again, despite losing drastically.
hahaha.

ok the ants are like all over the table, i better get rid of the corpse now.
hah.

wokays, gone!

oh yeah, went to visit a newborn baby ystd. SO CUTE.
i dunno his name though.
haha
his 1yr old sister is DAMN CUTE TOO.
i think among the rest of the visitors there, she likes me the most!
i think those kids have a THING for me you know.
hahaha.

on saturday, went to a house with 3 kids as well.
omg, the last kid was DAMN DAMN CUTE LAAA.
her name is SAKINA.
AND SHE IS AHHH.

it's so SAD i didnt bring my camera with me.
daaaang.

so anyways, after visiting yesterday, went to tampines mall/century square to get MY baby. haha



ok calling it a baby is kind of improper but what the hell.
it's a new born in my collection.(not tt there's a lot)
bahahah.

FINALLY, AFTER CENTURIES OF SAVING!
ok that was exaggerated just in case i have gullible readers.
hahah.

i am PROUD to announce that i have COMPLETED MY AMATH TYS and ONE ENG COMPRE + SUMMARY !
(((:
ok that doesnt sound a lot but it is a lot i tell you.
i think.
hah.

and i am irritated after looking thru SITES after SITES on blood types because they all say the same things. ABO. A can be donated to A and AB, O can be donated to any blood types but can only receive from O. smth like that. and i see NOTHING on A+ or A-.

i am loving life as it is now.
how i wish this can go on FOREVER.

i read my stupid + childish diaries just now.
"i miss ****** so much!"
"i wish blablabla"
"I HATE BLABLABLALBA"

omg, i feel happier not whining THAT much anymore.
i think i'm mastering the skill of ignoring my feelings now.
no, it is not a bad thing.
it is goooooood. (:
and i feel gooood. ((:
and if no one hasnt noticed already, i think i am more prudent now.
well, if you dont include my DKNY Be Delicious.
hahah.
all my money has gone to birthday presents, mothers' day gifts la, fathers' day gifts, food food and more food.
i havent been buying clothes.
that's sad.
oh well.
i hope to get that top i saw at topshop.
i even dreamt of going to topshop and when i reached the counter, MISS SWAN WAS THE CASHIER AND SHE DARE SAID 'COUNTER CLOSED' when there's a massive queue behind me.
i know that's just a dream but miss swan IN MY DREAM?!
omg that's just so freaky.
hahahah.

i think i am typing a whole lot of crap already.
enough is enough.
BYEEEE.

Blogged @ 4:56:00 PM




i love romantic comedies laa.
the ones which dont require you to use your brain (according to nasuha. she was referring that to me, but of course she was kidding, RIGHT? haha)
and i love fairytale endings.
the 'and-they-live-happily-ever-after' kind of thing.

i watched She's The Man yesterday with my mom and sis. (((:
and i am in LOVE with it.
why?
because i just do!!
it's the same kind of feeling i get after i finished watching What a Girl Wants,Freaky Friday and A Cinderella Story.

ohh another reason im in love with the moWIE is because..
the DUKE in the movie is SO HOT!! -pants-




see what i mean!!
he reminds me of my DEAR Leeryan!! HAHA

ok more pictures... (: i seem so 'jakun', i know.. haha
fyi jakun means uhhm smth like, 'never see before' liddat la. HAH.







see! cliche fairytale ending, but i LIKE. (((:
and Amanda Bynes has blossomed! hahaha the last time i saw her was in What a Girl Wants and in The Amanda Show! ahaha



i am not gonna do a review on it because 1)i am lazy, 2)i suck at reviewing, 3)my engrrish no good, 4)i have no time cos i have to help in the kitchen, uhm with the onions. hah and 5)the movie's got me speechless! i just love it that i cant even talk about it. GO WATCH IT, if you like uhm, you know, that kinda movies. lmao.

ok im OUT!

mud tree and hills. HAH. (ok only a handful of pple get this. lol)

Blogged @ 1:16:00 PM




i feel SO pathetic la.
it seems like everyone is cancelling on me.
it makes me paranoid.
is there something wrong with me?

at first it was nasuha, but it's ok la.. KL and Sinagpore are not very near. besides it's not everyday she can spend time with her family right.

then it was the outing with ameera and aneesa. it's ok la, cos who'd have the mood to go out without the money to splurge on right?

then supposedly, ridhwan planned to arrange a meeting for my mt class so that we can practise oral together. then because cikgu cheah was busy and stuff, we decided to cancel it.

yesterday my aunt told me she cant take leave this coming friday for us to go out to escape and eat at fish & co or smth, so we'll have to postpone the outing to NEXT friday.

on sunday, my sister planned to catch a movie with me YESTERDAY. unluckily, she wasnt in THE mood so i was STUCK at home.

today, she is still as lazy as ever and insists on staying at home to rot. i asked hayati out, but due to some circumstances, she just cant. that makes me stuck at home too.

gahh. dont u think i deserve some pity.
poooooor madhiah.
:(((

see! see!! it's like there's smth wrong with me!
is there something on my teeth?
do i stink?
have i got dandruff i dont even know off?

ok so maybe it's just coincidence everyone's just not free.
i must be really paranoid then.
i'm so paranoid that it hurts so bad.
gawsh.
no no im not petty.
i know huda is not able to read this but, i will wax my legs a day before OP06 okayyyy.
hahahahah.
oh man, even huda's computer is avoiding my blog!

ok enough!
i am sorry i am complaining too much but how come when i can go out, no one can and when i can't everyone asks me out? it's just unfair. well i know life's unfair, but it's too unfair. well maybe it's a blessing in disguise. it IS. i should be doing my homework and not going out shopping, even though i have like 200bucks right? because sopping not important MAHH.
-that accent-

i miss everyone lah.
that includes, you, you, you and YOU!
especially you la. and you. oh you also. aaaand you!
guess who?
go figure (:

anyway, something less dull happened yesterday.
went to macdonald's after school.
oh man entries are boring without pictures huh.
indeed.


amelia just wouldnt stop laughing!


see what i mean! haha


hayati needed privacy. haha


while waiting for her...


more of pics in the squeezy toilet





out of the toilet...

erwin cracking his lame-but-can-make-people-laugh jokes.


jeriel was chilling with his girl pals. haha



oh yeah, forgot to mention!
we saw 2 teacher lookalikes!
who??












mrs fanny loke and ms lee gy!! hahahah
well the mrs loke lookalike was actually kind of pretty looking. she only looks like mrs loke from the back hahah.

ok then all of them had to go back to school because they have stupid art and dnt. bwahahah.


and i went home ALONE.
poor poor me.
but that's ok, i wont die going home alone.
except there's no one who'd push me to the side or call out for me when there's a car approaching while i jaywalk. but then again, of course i am more cautious when i'm alone. duh!
bahhs, stop grumbling laaaa madhiah.
so irritating.

alright i'll just go now.
goodbye people.




i like you twohill.


HAH!

i miss YOUpeople
madhiah.

Blogged @ 3:10:00 PM




I AM SO SAD!!!
NASUHA IS NOT COMING TOMORROW
BUT 2 WEEKS LATER!!!

but that's ok. ill anticipate that then. hahah.


"bedek!! bedek!!!" (bluff!! bluff!!!)

I WISH laaa....
hahahah

looks like itll be a 3/5 teklets outing again then.
but thats ok.
haha



SEE YOU GUYS SOON. ((:

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS VIVIANN TAN!

Blogged @ 1:45:00 PM




I AM SO EXCITED.
NASUHA IS COMING!!!

:D:D:D:D:D

Blogged @ 1:41:00 PM